In pregnancy, there really comes a point where in you feel tired already. True enough, I am actually experiencing it right now. At 33 weeks, I feel very, very heavy and tired of this pregnancy. My mom and aunts even told me that I'm the crankiest pregnant girl they have ever encountered. Hey, its not that I do it on purpose nor do I like it a bit. I just can't help it. From 110 lbs pre-pregnancy weight, I am now a whopping 152 lbs as of my last check up, and with that I am on a very strict less or preferably no-rice diet. I can't stand the summer heat either. I tell you, I sweat like crazy even if I'm just sitting still, and that annoys me a lot. To make things worse, my skin is breaking out, everything seems to be getting dark (armpits, neck, etc...) and nothing fits anymore - including my shoes! I just want to give birth and be done with it. I can't wait to drink coffee and tea again. I can't wait to fit back into my pre-pregnancy clothes. I can't wait to go swimming and wear a bikini. I can't wait to wear killer high heels. I can't wait to have my hair color and treatment. I just can't wait to be back to my old self again. I know it sounds so selfish of me to think this way, and I'm really sorry if I sound so shallow, it's just that I feel like I'm losing myself these days. Don't get e wrong, I love my baby very much and I don't regret having him for one bit, but I just want to see him face to face so that I can start taking care of him already and then take care of myself too. Haysh, I soo hate these pregnancy hormones! It's just driving me nuts!
On a lighter note, My OB said that we're already on homestretch. She even comended me for just gaining 2lbs last time. She said that I just continue to eat healthy, do more walking exercises for easier labor and that I can give birth first or second week of June. We're almost there Bonchon! Are you excited to see me too?
"The hardest thing is loving someone and then having the courage to let them love you back."
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